Richard Marx- Hold On To The Nights

I prefer his music from the 80’s and early 90’s but my favorite song will Always be Hold On to the Nights from 1988.  The lyrics are hauntingly beautiful, simple, concise and very Real.  I don’t think the song necessarily signifies two people married per say. It could also mean two people that are in love with each other but don’t know how to deal with those feelings and chemistry perhaps because of their youth or because life itself is pushing them in separate directions and deep down they want to be together and perhaps the choices they have to make is a limitation to that yearning of wanting to be with each other.


Just when I believed I couldn’t ever want for more

This ever changing world pushes me through another door
I saw you smile
And my mind could not erase the beauty of your face
Just for awhile
Won’t you let me shelter youHold on to the nights
Hold on to the memories
I wish that I could give you something more
That I could be yours
How do we explain something that took us by surprise
Promises in vain, love that is real but in disguise
What happens now
Do we break another rule
Let our lovers play the fool
I don’t know how
To stop feeling this way
Hold on to the nights
Hold on to the memories
I wish that I could give you something more
That I could be yours
Well, I think that I’ve been true to everybody else but me
And the way I feel about you makes my heart long to be free
Every time I look into your eyes, I’m helplessly aware
That the someone I’ve been searching for is right there
Hold on to the nights
Hold on to the memories
I wish that I could give you more
Hold on to the nights.

Strong Women

Here is to strong women Everywhere!  May we know them, may we BE them and Race them if we have daughters. My biggest aspiration is to be the strongest woman I can be. I’m not talking about being a feminist but about knowing that not having a partner does not make one incomplete or useless as society would have us believe. Of course I want someone special to share my life with but if he doesn’t come around I’m not going to sit by and let my dreams go by, especially my dreams of motherhood. If he’s out there and I meet him at some point great and if not great too. My self-worth DOES NOT depend on having a man or being married, in other words living according to society standards.


Sucky 2015

I take reality over  being a Pollyanna anyday.  I am not  one to sugar coat things, I like being direct. If something is wonderful I’ll say it, if it’s otherwise I’ll say it as well.  Personally this year has been awful,  it is definately a year that I’d really like to forget.  I won’t go into details about my personal life in a blog, suffice to say that  Religion has played a major role in my drifting apart from certain people, especially family members.   I have been drifting apart from Christianity for many years, but  it wasn’t until this year that I finally came to the conclusion that I don’t need religion nor do I need to believe in a Christian God in order to have faith and be a good person.  This awaking has been the only positive aspect of 2015.  I have nothing against those who believe and feel religion is central to their lives.  I am ONLY against the religious fanatics who feel the need to shove their belief system down other people’s throats .  I welcome advice but I don’t tolerate others telling me how I should live my life or what I should believe in.  Having problematic neighbors has been the worst thing that happened in 2015.  People who take pleasure  in  making loud and excessive noise day and night are worthless to me. I consider such people  garbage, a waste of time and space and with serious psychological problems.  I’m too young to be stuck where I am and too old to deal with shitheads who have nothing better in life than to bother others.   It would be nice if 2016 turns out to be better.  I’m not in the holiday spirit this year but Happy New Year to anyone reading this.



Family isn’t always thicker than water.  Now that I’m older I realize that just because someone is related to me that doesn’t mean I have to like them, tolerate their negativity  or even love them. I always felt so guilty for not getting along with certain people in the family that I ended up  emotionally exhausted in the process  of trying  to “get along”. Many times so called relatives are the first ones to  turn their backs when you need their help. Nonetheless, they are first in line to pass judgement and criticize. I don’t ascribe to “family is family no matter what” belief. Family or NOT I don’t want toxic people in my life and I have NO PROBLEMS with eliminating such people from my life.